Thursday, June 18, 2015

The Meantime: First Ultra, Cycling, SUP, Exploring Outdoors, and What's Next...

I've fallen in love with these mountain lakes and my new SUP comes in 5 days!  Another thing that might seem silly to some but fun to me:  Headstands on this thing.  GREAT core work!  


It's been so long since I've blogged.  It seems as if the longer I go, the harder it is to write again.  It's hard to find my voice on here sometimes.  I think this has come naturally with all the big changes in life over the last few years but now that we are settled and  have put down some bigger roots, I'm looking forward to finding my writing voice more.  Maybe that will be on this blog and maybe not, but for now I'm glad to be here today.  There have been moments in the last year where I've come to write on here and it all feels so silly and pointless.  I'm not sure why I've felt this way but more than ever I've realized how meaningful and powerful it can be when we share ourselves with others...when we write and speak our stories, goals, feelings, inspiration...  it's a light.  It really is. No matter how simple or plain or small our life topics feel when we share.  Chance are, when we are real and speak what is on our hearts and minds (deep and surface), there is someone else out there that can relate.  A connection. I've truly craved this authenticity and connection in my life...with my own sharing and in hearing about the real life happenings and heart of others.  Those that want to read will read and those that don't, won't.  It's that simple.

Sisters, OR (20 minutes from Bend)

So much has happened since my last post.  Too much to write about in the fifteen minutes I have before heading off to pick up my son from one of his last days of preschool.  I've run my first trail 50k, caught the SUP (Stand-up Paddle Board) bug, bought my first pair of clip-in bike shoes, gone on my first big road mountain cycling adventure (big to me...especially the down hills...holy scary!!), entertained the idea of my first triathlon in three weeks, attempted my first open water lake swim in a wet suit (different than without for sure!  And note to self: wear a swim cap next time so you don't look like a drunk crazy lady wobbling out of the water with vertigo), and overall, been enjoying the heck out of these great outdoors in the Central Oregon Mountains.  I truly feel home...finally!  I think I really realized this when I changed my Facebook header from my picture of fields of sunflowers in the Blue Ridge Mountains to the mountains I live in now.  I know, this sounds so funny and ridiculous but that picture was untouchable for a long time and I never could even think of changing it out because I missed Asheville so much.  But something has changed within me.  I love Asheville and will forever cherish my time there.  I miss it lots even.  However, something has clicked with me recently that wasn't entirely here before...like my bike shoes when they find their place to be clipped in to my pedals instead of sliding all over...contentment.  I'm growing here. My roots are taking hold and I'm in rich soil.  Amazing how this can finally happen when we surrender to change and allow ourselves our process as it comes.

I don't entirely know what is next in my life but I sense it is something big that I least expect.  This morning I woke up with a very clear sense of calm where I know I need to trust this process and be still for a bit as this next chapter unfolds.  The fall will bring an empty nest of sorts for me as my youngest goes to Kindergarten!  I've stayed home from my teaching career for five years now so I'm feeling a little graspy (if this isn't a word, it is now) at times recently... grasping for something that gives ME definition or my life a purpose. But I have a purpose and my next thing will come to me if I don't rush and if I'm open to using my gifts...I'm certain of it. Maybe it will be teaching and maybe it will be something I'd never imagined doing.  For now, my focus is soaking up this summer with my kids, being so so grateful that I CAN make this decision to be home with them (giving value to this personal choice), and entertaining new ideas of how I can use my mind, education, and passions/gifts.  Exciting blank canvas coming up here...I'm looking forward to painting it!

I'm ending this post with some pictures and captions and will plan to be back soon with more detailed writing on training, motherhood, goals, dreams, readings, and thoughts.  I've missed you Runninghood...I certainly am hoping to be here more often.

One happy girl after a day in the mountain sunshine, a cold mountain swim, plenty of time on the SUP, and my kids lost playing all darn day in nature!  A cold IPA was nice too!



More to say with this... After our first trail 50k!  What an experience!  And what a long time running!  And walking up looong inclines!  What I thought would be an easy sub 5hours turned out to be over 5 hours but a time I was still proud of for my first!  2nd in AG.  A well-run event with plenty of beauty, aid stations, and beer/food for the after party.  Oh, and this wonderful man next to me?  He ran it very untrained and didn't finish long after me.  Although, he's a little injured now because of it.


Third day of camping....wrapped it up with having Elk Lake darn near to myself besides a few sail boats and my kids and friends kayaking in the far distance. A quiet moment to sit on the paddle board and take it all in with a writing meditation and finishing a letter to a friend. My meditation was using my senses to take in my moment and be mindful...I SEE.... I HEAR...I FEEL... Going home happy, tired, full, and filthy!!! And my kids? They are disgusting!! Bath time tonight! Oh, and I tried my first open water swim with a wet suit but forgot the swim cap...humbling!!! And holy vertigo from the water in my ears...I looked drunk trying to walk to shore. Dear Bend peeps, please don't laugh at me if I jump in my first triathlon in a few weeks...I'll be the one breast stroking and riding my brakes down the mountain.


Ride from Sisters, OR to top of McKenzie Pass where epic views and a lava rock observatory awaited me! Wahoo! Besides a numb crotch and no brakes left on my bike on the fly down, I'm feeling on top of the world! And oh small town Sisters, you make this mountain girl's heart swoon!!
A whole gaggle of kids catching snakes for hours upon hours...their own world...entirely lost in play...filthy hands and bodies, fort building, imaginary worlds, stars so bright you feel like you're in a dream, fresh air, cool lakes, s'mores, stories by the campfire, happy dogs, building new relationships, long days...so close to home but yet worlds away! Renewal! So worth all the work to make it happen!! Memories for a lifetime.

Life is fast! But a blink of an eye. I think it's so valuable to slow ourselves down enough to reflect on just how much we really are doing... accomplishing...working through and making beautiful! This is especially true for me when I recognize those little lying voices of fear, self doubt and "not good enough" creep in this head of mine. We all have this to some extent, I think. This exercise of listing the big things in the last year was pretty powerful...the truth is on the pages! It's not about saying "Hey, look at me!" It's about recognizing our accomplishments and life high lights...when we acknowledge these things, we give life to MORe of them!  It's been a heck of a year ...from June 2014 to June 2015...so much change but in the midst of it all, there's been some pretty big and beautiful moments! It hasn't all been easy but it sure has been worth it! Thankful for this time to reflect and read my heart as I shift gears and think about my NOW goals and my goals for the road just ahead. Life, I love you.

Hope to reconnect with those of you that still write blogs and read blogs and that I truly do miss connecting with!

Amanda
Mostly on Instagram for my blog these days!

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Smith Rock Half Marathon

This last weekend in Central Oregon was one that not only offered gorgeous weather for playing outside and celebrating Mother's Day, but also several noteworthy races worth writing about (and adding to your must-do race lists)!  Go Beyond Racing put on two days of races this weekend, both in one of the most scenic places in Central Oregon: Smith Rock State Park.




 On May 9th, trail runners from all over came to take on the challenging but gorgeous dirt trails in and around Smith Rock.  There were options for a 50k, 15m, and 4 m.  These races filled up completely and will likely fill FAST next year.  After seeing the pictures, hearing the stories from other runners, and experiencing first-hand how Go Beyond Racing organizes their races, I can see why.  And I hope to be there for one of these trail races next year if my schedule allows.

A shot from the Smith Rock Trail races that I hope to be a part of next year if I don't go back for the Half Marathon road race.  Photo Credit:  Paul Nelson Photography

After the Saturday trail races, runners were back to Smith Rock on Sunday, May 10th, for the mostly flat and scenic road races The Smith Rock Road Half Marathon and 10k.  I signed up last minute for the half marathon and it did not disappoint!  What fun!  When I sketched out my calendar for my ultra marathon training (May 25th Trail Factor 50k), I knew I wanted to include several races to use as fun stronger runs/workouts.  I ran a 15k in March, the Boston Marathon in April, and now this Half Marathon on Sunday. I waited on committing to this half marathon because I wasn't sure my body would be up for this half marathon so close to Boston but I'm feeling stronger than ever and EXCITED for my first trail ultra in Portland in just about two weeks!  I've really enjoyed these opportunities to get into a race environment with having my only goal to run happy, strong and pressure free.

A Little Personal Background (You can always skim/skip and move on to the race review bullets below)
Two weeks until my ultra?  It's weird writing this because I honestly haven't thought too much about what I'm specifically "training for" this time around.  In fact, I really don't feel as if I have been training for something--I've been enjoying running.   The ultra marathon destination is icing on the cake.  What first started out as kind of loosely following my own plan taken from a collection of running books around my house, has now come to Simply ENJOYING the process of getting out there and running my trails! It's training for LIFE and I don't see much changing after my ultra other than my mileage dropping since it is summertime where the kids are all home from school and my priorities change a bit.  I've been taking my running one day at a time and putting in miles as my schedule allows and as I feel like running them.  I'm more relaxed and happy with my running than ever before.  Gearing up to run Boston as a training run of sorts meant that I definitely made my long runs a priority so I would have the endurance to truly run 26.2 miles with a certain amount of ease instead of DYING and having those last 6 miles feel like the dreaded death march like they most certainly can be if one doesn't adequately train for a marathon.  I also added in random speed and tempo work in MUCH smaller doses than I have in the past.  I kept my weekly mileage on the lower end (average probably in the 40's with a range of 30-55 when I was counting).  And last but NOT LEAST (rather MOST), I have almost exclusively trained on DIRT!  Almost all of my runs have been on these mountain trails in and around Bend, Oregon.  This has changed running for me in some of the best of ways!

Highlights and Review Points from The Smith Rock Half Marathon 
Pleasantly surprised with 2nd woman overall and some really great awards! Great start to Mother's Day!

I've never been one for writing good full-on race reports (especially in this situation where it was more of a workout than a goal race).  Rather than write a complete pre race report from beginning to end starting with my alarm clock, taking you into what I ate and drank, telling you about whether I pooped or not and how much, showing you my outfit and race bib, etc., I'm going to move to bullets to list my highlights from this 13.1 run at Smith Rock!
  • Fist off, this was a very well run race!  The Half Marathon and 10k were started together and the course was marked very clearly.  
  • It was easy to pick up bibs either the day before at Foot Zone in Bend or on race morning.  
  • Parking in the State Park was easy BUT I didn't read the details on the website and didn't realize we were supposed to pay for a parking pass if we didn't have a State Park annual pass.  I wasn't prepared for this since I rarely carry cash.  It is only $5 but I didn't even have that.  Luckily, I didn't get a ticket.  They must have assumed from looking in the windows of my minivan and seeing the kid mess, dirty car seats, and finger prints on the window that I was a MOTHER.  And it was Mother's Day...how cruel to ticket me!  ha!  Or they just had grace on us runners and assumed we'd be out soon enough.  
  • I didn't buy a shirt.  I usually pass on the shirts because I have so many race shirts and running clothes.  However, I heard from my soccer mom friend (2nd place woman in the 10k) that the shirts were AWESOME.  She raved about them for several minutes and said how they were the best race shirt she has had.  So, note: Buy the shirt if you run next year!  
  • These Smith Rock Road races did not fill up like the trail races.  I'm pretty sure many of the people in Central Oregon or traveling to Central Oregon for a race are either A. Looking for a challenge and wanting the outdoor experience of mountain trails.  or B. Assuming that even a road race in and around Smith Rock would be brutally hilly and hard and wanting something flatter and faster.  Well, another NOTEWORTHY point:  These races on this week have something for EVERYONE.  No joke.  If you want a mostly flat and faster half marathon course and still have the beautiful scenery that Central Oregon offers:  these road race options are it!  I imagine more people will flock to this race next year.  And if you do, note that there is also a team option for the 10k that you can read more about on their website.  This options sounds great for families, work groups, and high school runners to name a few.  
  • The course.  Yes, it was mostly flat and fast as the website describes.  However, I must say that it isn't completely flat as a pancake.  The person marking the course AFTER the trail options probably thought it was the flattest darn course they had ever run compared to the intense climbs on the trails.  Ha!  After running my 18 miler on Tuesday and being less than 3 weeks out from Boston, I might have noticed a few spots that felt like inclines but still nothing that was challenging.  If anything, a few small hills, followed by gentle downs and flat again.  
  • Yes, I ran an 18 miler on Tuesday of this week and then this half on Saturday so it was a good week of training.  Granted, my 18 miler was on trails and slow and I walked in several spots.  I guess it still counts for 18 though.  :)  
  • The volunteers on the course were friendly and helpful.  They offered an energy drink (I think GU Brew?  I need to check on that.) and water.  This was one of those races where I wasn't in a rush and didn't mind stopping to drink and then carrying back on.  
  • Since there weren't a lot of people in this race compared to other races like say, Boston (ha!), I ran by myself for much of the time.  I love this kind of course/race though!  There was always at least one person I could see ahead of me and there were a few times during the race where I ran in a small pack but otherwise, mostly in my own zone.  Next year will likely be a fuller race but still offer the same serenity and space.  
  • Being out there on open country mountain roads without a lot of people and having it be such a beautiful day (scenery and weather) reminded me of a couple popular Portland races that I've run.   If I described this course to some of you that have run in Portland, I'd say it is a mix between the Sauvie Island Marathon and Helvetia Half but without the huge hills that Helvetia has! Truly a great course to drive out for!  
  • The race directors and volunteers were so efficient with things...from announcing race finishers, giving out medals, having the food and drink set up, getting us started, announcing winners/awards in a timely manner, and so much more!  Very organized!!  
  • Every mother that finished the race got a special medal and a rose for Mother's Day.  Way to start our day off so special!  
Flowers for all the Mother Runners! 


  • Good AWARDS!  I was pleasantly surprised by the awards!  As 2nd woman overall, I got a really nice pint glass (who doesn't love a good pint glass for beer when you live in Bend?!) and a $50 gift card to one of the local running stores, Foot Zone!  Sweet! This is half of a new pair of trail shoes or a trail pack for my husband!  Thank you Food Zone!  The overall winners got a pint glass and a new pair of Skora Running Shoes! I have no doubts this race might be a bit more stacked with runners next year.  Who doesn't want a new pair of shoes and $$ to spend at a running store?
The winners got to choose a new pair of shoes!  Sweet!

I love these nice pint glasses that were given as overall and age group awards!  And the $50 gift card to Foot Zone  for being 2nd woman?  So cool!  I will be putting this towards new trail shoes or my husband's trail pack! Thank you Go Beyond Racing and Foot Zone! 

  • Post race Atlas Cider! I'm pretty sure they had good beer there too but I wasn't into drinking alcohol before noon this time so I passed.  
  • As far as my personal race...what fun!  As soon as we started, I knew there wouldn't be a ton of people to run with so I settled into a pace that felt happy but strong and enjoyed being out there pushing my body a bit!  At around mile 7 or 8 there was one of those kind-of hills that felt bigger than it was.  I snapped out of my zone for a bit and started hearing all those negative voices that used to fill my head.  I felt tired and distracted.  Then a bigger hairy guy came up behind me.  I said something about the hill and he gruffed back: "Ah, this is nothing...just a tiny bump.  I do Ironmans." And on he went, plodding right by me.  What?! Did he just call me a wimp?  Ha Ha.  Clearly, he DID NOT call me a wimp.  No such thing.  But in my head, I felt a little made fun of over my pathetic whining over the not so big hill.  Right then I decided to stand up straight, run with my natural but awkward and so not beautiful form, and return to my zone:  "Stay Within Yourself Amanda.  You drive this bus! You're in control. Run on. And don't let that big hairy dude beat you!"  After this, the rest of the race was comfortable and strong again.  As if I never had a rough patch at all.  Weird how our minds work. My finish time: 1:37:32.  Splits: 7:14, 7:14, 7:22, 7:19, 7:36, 7:28, 7:39, 8:02, 7:40, 7:32, 7:29, 7:18, 7:01...6:29 pace for last .1.  Lately, these moments in races have been so powerful for me in seeing what it's like to really be in a ZONE and know how to tap into my own mind effectively.  I haven't always been able to do this.  Granted, I'm not in race situations where I'm pushing myself to my limits or racing all out but I have found that I have more control over my mind/body connection.  I love this!  Now, if I ever go for a sub 1:30 half marathon, then I might be struggling with this again!  I'm pretty sure the sub 1:30 ship is about to pass though...if I'm going to do it, I need to train for it before 40!  

This is right around the finish. If you look closely, you can see a herd of deer grazing in the field.  Where else can you see snow capped mountains, jutting rocks, dirt trails, and finish a race next to a herd of deer who keep on eating as if you aren't even there?  Maybe they were watching the finish?  

I'd highly recommend any of these races!  If you're looking for a fast and scenic road half marathon or 10k in one of the most beautiful places in Oregon, this is such a good one to do!  Not only do you get to run a fabulous well-supported course with fun awards and pre/post running environment, but you can finish off the weekend exploring Bend, OR and the surrounding areas!

Happy Running,


Amanda

Monday, May 11, 2015

A Letter From My Daughter on Mother's Day

Written yesterday on Mother's Day and posted later.

Mother Daughter handstand contest at Crux in Bend.  

Happy Mother's Day to all the moms out there!  What a great day (and continues to be)!  It started with an early morning half marathon --The Smith Rock Half Marathon (race report/review SOON) that left me smiling and feeling good.  Then I came home to a very clean house, happy kids, and small but BIG and meaningful gifts.  Every one in my family showed their love in a way they knew would mean much to me.  The kids cleaned their rooms, my middle daughter had small notes and handmade gifts she had been hiding around the house for a week or two, my husband matted (soon to be framed) a piece of art that I've had stored away since we moved (and cleaned the house from top to bottom), and my oldest daughter presented me with a bottle with a letter in it....

A couple of hours of quiet alone time on Mother's Day after my half marathon.  A clean house, words of love, and a matted piece of art just waiting to be framed so we can finally get some art on the walls in this front room.  


All of these gifts of love meant so much to me.  But the letter...the letter made me CRY.  It made me feel so truly SEEN, appreciated and VALUED!

Let me back up a bit.  This year is my oldest daughter's 4th grade year.  She has a teacher we all dream of having for our kids.  She has THAT teacher. The teacher that changes lives.  The teacher that sees these students are HERS and wraps them up with love, holding them to high standards and SEEING them for the individuals they are.  This teacher.  Wow.  If anything, she needs to be wished Happy Mother's Day by all her almost 30 students because she truly is a second mother of sorts...She's their teacher but she loves them and teachers them beyond anything I've seen.  My mama heart is full and THANKFUL to have her in our lives!

My sweet girl with her teacher who came to watch her last soccer game.  It was wonderful to see how joyful this made my daughter...to see her favorite teacher there to support  her in her sport.  


Anyway, for Mother's Day, she has spent weeks with them ...guiding them through the writing process to write a letter to their mothers.  She challenged them to go deep with their letters using all five senses...What they hear, see, smell, taste and feel when they think of their mothers.  I'm pretty sure her goal was to get the kind of authentic writing from them that would make every mother cry from being touched so much...and she NAILED IT.

I asked my daughter if I could publish her letter on my blog so I could have it on here for my own purposes.  She smiled and thought that would be great so I'm sharing it here (more for me than anythings else...I will print this blog out someday!).

My Wonderful Mother...
When I think of you, I see...The hard working and loving woman who cares for me each day.  I see you tired after cleaning our home.  I know you do that so we don't live in a pigsty.  I see you in the kitchen working to prepare a great dinner.  I see you calling and texting our friends' moms so we can have play dates.  I see you tucking us in at night to make sure we know we are loved.  

When I think of you, I hear you saying.. "I love you."  I hear your footsteps as you run on the treadmill. I hear your fingers click clacking on the keyboard as you type up your book that you're writing.  I hear you singing in the shower.  I hear you saying I'm sorry after a fight.  

When I think of you, I smell...your sweat after a run.  I smell your Burt's Bees lotion as I kiss your neck.  I smell your Aunt's Italian sauce.  I smell your avocado shampoos after a shower.  I smell your minty breath after you brush your teeth.  

When I think of you, I taste the thoughtful lunches you pack for us every day.  I know you don't have to do that but you do since you love me.  I taste the wonderful dinners you have never made before and then you do make them they turn out perfect.  I know you don't like to cook much but when you do they almost always turn out great. I know you do that so we have food in our bellies.  

When I think of you, I feel...your soft skin when you get out of the shower.  I feel your soothing dark brown highlighted hair as it brushes against my neck.  I feel your comforting body heat when you comfort me after a bad dream.  I feel your warm breath as you kiss me goodnight.  

When I think of you, I feel... determined to do whatever I want to do when I grow up like you.  I feel calm, hyper and energetic.  I feel I want to get outside and exercise.  I feel inspired to pursue my dreams and go to any school I want, even Harvard or Yale.  I feel that I want to be like you when I grow up.  


As far as celebrating MY beautiful mother and artist Cher Odum.  I was so happy to be able to drive up to Portland on Thursday for her opening night in a new gallery in the Pearl District. SO SO proud of her!!  It was so special to be a fly on the wall in this gallery and hear what everyone had to say when they saw her art.  Here are a few pictures and captions from this:


A picture of us viewing our picture before the artist reception.  Love her! 

J Pepin Art Gallery 

From earlier:  "Darn near moved to tears sitting here on a bench in this gallery...seeing and hearing strangers marvel at and comment on my mom's work and the story behind these pieces. I am especially moved because I know her story...what it took for her to keep going with her dreams and passions despite the obstacles...the doubters...naysayers...financial struggles...anxiety/depression...FEAR! I know some of what it took for her to hold fast to her dreams and honor her gifts as an artist! I am also moved by the vision of this gallery...its purpose to reframe the perception of mental illness through art, and recognize the beauty and creativity that can come from it. Another step to overcoming the stigma associated with mental illness! "





Amanda