Audience of One

Thankful for this book.  

For Today.

To write for just ME,

Unguarded, 

Honest,

Raw.

Prayerfully,

Vulnerable and Intimate.

A letter to just myself,

goals for only my eyes,

stories of my children,

tracings of their hands.

Feelings that are not meant to share.

Prayers of gratitude,

for things deep within myself and meant just for me.

To Grow. To Reflect. To Reread.  To Enjoy.

Writing just for Me, audience of one.

As I approach the one-year mark for Runninghood, it is pretty neat to look back over my journal entries, blog posts and pictures to see all that has happened in a year.  I've grown and learned tremendously...as a runner, mother, wife, friend, self...you name it!  I've improved. Challenged myself.  Shared my spirit.  Been inspired. Set a million-and-one goals and held myself accountable, with you.  Blogging has been so rewarding and enriching....and Validating!  Sharing my journals, reflections, goals, motherhood moments, fears, and random ramblings has been like talking to good friends.  At times it has been scary to put my heart out there so much...to write about things that are so personal...a vulnerable feeling.  But again and again, I am overwhelmed by the amazing responses that make me feel heard, understood, and appreciated.  Many many good things have come from blogging.  So many more good and beautiful benefits and opportunities than not.  In reflecting this morning, I realize that the only thing I do miss about pre-blogging days was the time I spent with just myself...writing for just me...the deep kind...the kind of writing that knows that there will be nobody reading except for me.  My quality writing time for, and with just ME has faded drastically and with this, I've lost touch with a parts of myself.  The deepest parts.  Writing in my personal journal this morning after a couple of months felt kind of like chatting with a friend rather than being on the deepest level with MYSELF.  I felt a little distant, awkward even.  Reminds me of how easy it is to get wrapped up in writing for an audience...even writing about writing in a journal...but then forgetting to really enjoy the process of "journaling to journal" and be with myself and God and not just journal with "sharing" in mind.  Anyway, it was nice to come to this realization today.  Nice to be back "Home" with my writing.  Nice to have it just for me.  

Happy Wednesday!  

Amanda