As I approach 36 years-old this week, I'm realizing that I'm kind of going to a new age bracket...not race division type of bracket..but a new life age group. The other side of the mountain in the thirties decade. I imagine each decade to look like a mountain with half way being at the top. So here I am...hiking down the other side of the thirties mountain. Crazy. I'm excited to see what's next. My 30-35 side of the mountain brought with it an incredible amount of travel and adventure but an equal amount of hard life lessons that I'm beyond grateful to come out of (stronger and wiser). So far, as a woman, I've loved my age more the older I get. Minus the wrinkles and random chin hairs that keep trying to pick a fight with me. What is that all about anyway?? I'm sure there will come a point where I'll want to go back to a younger age (maybe) but for now, I'll take my thirties any day over my twenties. I truly do believe that the best is yet to come!
|Just some reflection in my journal about my age brackets/ peaks and valleys|
So, what do I want for the next bracket of my thirties?
- To enjoy life. Be still. Soak up my kids that won't be kids for too much longer.
- Start putting my foot back into the career/work world just a little now that my baby is almost in kindergarten. But still be available LOTS. Not sure what this looks like. Writing a book...networking...connecting with my community...volunteering...using my gifts.... The more I get connected with the running community here in Bend, the more I think finding a job in the running field just might be something that would provide MUCH joy and satisfaction. In fact, I was talking to my friend last night about how fun/rewarding it would be to work in a running store. A perfect way to use my passions for running and people. I also have thoughts of returning to graduate school and teaching again. We shall see. :)
- Continue running and enjoying these gorgeous trails that Central Oregon and the Pacific Northwest have to offer. Train for my first ultra trail marathon. Not so sure I'm all about chasing a PR anytime soon though. I'm happy with where my running is with simply running because I LOVE to RUN! Outside. On dirt. In nature. With my thoughts and dreams. What a gift it is! It's certainly freeing to keep the watch at home for much of the time.
- Dig deeper with my marriage. There's always room to grow together. Making time for each other through date nights, sharing our lives, doing the extras to show love, and continuing to talk and know each other...these things are important to me!
- Put myself out there. What does this look like? Telling my story as it comes (the good and bad), reaching out, taking chances, doing things that scare me, telling FEAR to get in the backseat and let me drive the bus...connecting with people!
- Be WAY easier on myself than I was from 20-35. Grace. Love. Imperfection. Bring it! And give it freely to those I love most.
Things I'm smiling about today with Running, Parenthood, Life:
- Feeling good today after my run yesterday.
- The local running community in Bend. The more I get plugged in, the more excited I am! From running stores to races to opportunities for families to run and be active. Pretty cool scene.
- My kids are making friends and getting settled! Yes! A good feeling to see your kids happy.
- Just this last week, I've experienced some incredible comfort from my kids. My oldest came with me to two different things that I was nervous about and she supported me and provided comfort and strength. Wow, when did we get to this point in life where they are actually the ones giving back to us? So cool! When I was emceeing, she knew I was nervous at first and she kept coming over from where she was passing out medals to tell me: "Good job Mama!" So so neat to see them growing up and giving back to the world with their unique personalities and gifts.
- Thankful that I've been able to be home with them. I don't think stay-at-home-motherhood is something everyone can or even wants to do. Different strokes. But it was something I wanted to do from the beginning. I wanted a career and an education but I also knew that being a mother was up there at the top of my "career" list. There are times I've felt like I've lost my mind. Times where I've craved intellectual stimulation from graduate school or a career or just something outside the home. Times I couldn't remember the last time I actually dressed up and wore something other than workout clothes or yoga pants. Yup. Times where I've just itched to be doing something different. BUT. In the end, I'm so so glad I've had this time. And I plan to keep enjoying it. Yes, I feel like a taxi driver with three kids in three different schools and sports across town at all different hours but even then, I'm glad. I'm honored to be doing what I'm doing and I want to remind myself of this when I find myself scowling and growling and feeling drained. This is a choice and one I'm grateful for. Smiling for this today! Yes!
- I got to talk to one of my dearest friends last night. So special to me to see that I can talk to this friend for over 3 hours and STILL have things to talk about. So thankful for friendship.
- Really, nothing I haven't said in the rest of this blog.
- What are some things you're smiling about today?
- Do you like getting older? Pros and cons? I definitely would choose my 20's when it comes to my body as an athlete (pre injuries, able to handle so much more with running!) but with other things, I am loving my 30's!
- What are some things you want to accomplish in the next "BRACKET" of your age mountain?