It's not very often that I experience a moment in my life that makes me say without a doubt that it was my favorite memory. A perfect memory. I mean, favorite? Perfect? Those are strong words to use alone. Out of all the memories we have from our existence? To have a favorite memory? Not just a "one of my favorites" or a "perhaps my favorite" but indeed "my favorite". Yesterday evening was it. It was perfect.
Dreamlike.
Heaven on earth.
It was and is...
My Favorite Family Memory (with all of us) from my life so far.
Earlier in the day, I drove to the Biltmore Estates for a run. As as typical for me lately, I am a bit wishy washy with my running. I told myself that 15 miles would be nice to fit in but I would just run and see what I felt like as the run progressed. It's hard to set yourself up for actually finishing 15 miles when your heart really isn't that into it and you give yourself an "out". But that's okay. Life isn't always about having a hardcore goal and constantly driving driving driving ourselves toward better, stronger, faster, longer. It just isn't. For me,right now,life is about slowing down. Accepting. Being present. Practicing self-compassion and grace. And allowing myself to be where I am as I am in this moment. I'm working on defining success and failure for myself, trying to judge myself less harshly, and truly truly believing that I am enough as I am. Being a mom is enough. Taking time to slow down is enough. Enjoying the days without a specific goal is enough. And cutting my 15 mile wish for a run down to 6 is enough. More than enough.
As I hit about 2 miles yesterday, I was running in new territory. My steps led to a narrow dirt path that meandered up a grassy hillside. I was surrounded by big beautiful shade trees that almost seemed to be singing and whispering their life secrets to me as I ran under their huge branches and found comfort in their shade. With every step, I climbed higher. Alone, except for the random runner or biker coming up or down the path. It was absolutely beautiful. The closer I got to the top of this hill, I could see that it would take me right to the Biltmore House. And it did. There at the end of this path, right at mile 3, was this gorgeous mansion wrapped up in blue skies, fields of endless grassy hills, timeless looking trees, and the Blue Ridge Mountains. Forget my 15 miles. I couldn't help but just
Stop.
Be Still.
And soak up all that was around me.
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| For those of you that don't know about the Biltmore Estates or Biltmore house, this is a picture of the house (source) and you can read more about it here. Truly Timeless Beauty! I hope to make the most of our membership by going on a many a run there, enjoying the gardens, the village, and touring the house itself. |
Standing at the top of that grassy hill with nothing but beauty surrounding me, I noticed the perfect tree. The perfect spot in the perfect field. And I wanted nothing more than to be sitting there on a blanket with my family. Just us, a picnic, some wine, and no agenda other than being together.
So, that's what happened.
I ran 3 beautiful miles back to my car, went home to pack up and get ready, and we were all making our way back to the Biltmore for this perfect family memory.
Warm gentle breeze,
Nobody but us for as far as we could see,
Surrounded by gorgeous mountains and blue sky,
Grassy pastures,
Old, wise trees,
Blanket,
Wine,
Conversation and laughter over cutting cheese and crunching on crackers,
Races down the hill,
Finding grasshoppers,
Cuddling,
Dreaming,
Being fully present, thankful and ALIVE,
Waiting for the sun to go down.
Like a Dream. Heaven on Earth.
It. Was. Perfect.
I will forever have this moment as part of my heart and soul. It was a reminder to me of all that really matters in life. Everything felt simple last night. Enough. Full. Rich beyond any wealth I have imagined. My thoughts slowed. I wasn't over thinking anything. I wasn't anywhere but there, in that moment.
I'm sure that as the years come and go, there will be other memories that stand out to me as simply perfect. There will be other moments where I feel like I'm in a dream or experiencing heaven on earth. But I do know that these moments are special. They are gifts. Treasures. And messages to us about how deeply loved we are.
Slow down, you move too fast, you've got to make the morning last
Just kickin' down the cobble-stones, lookin' for fun and feelin' groovy
Feeling groovy
Hello lamp-post, what's cha knowing, I've come to watch your flowers growin'
Ain't cha got no rhymes for me, do-it-do-do, feelin' groovy
Feeling groovy
I've got no deeds to do, no promises to keep
I'm dappled and drowsy and ready to sleep
Let the morning time drop all its petals on me
Life I love you, all is groovy
Just kickin' down the cobble-stones, lookin' for fun and feelin' groovy
Feeling groovy
Hello lamp-post, what's cha knowing, I've come to watch your flowers growin'
Ain't cha got no rhymes for me, do-it-do-do, feelin' groovy
Feeling groovy
I've got no deeds to do, no promises to keep
I'm dappled and drowsy and ready to sleep
Let the morning time drop all its petals on me
Life I love you, all is groovy
Life really is wonderful, isn't it? Especially when we slow down enough to soak it up.
Amanda
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