Friday, December 9, 2011

Brooks ID Member, Early Morning Run, and Motherhood Hurt

I've always said how much I am NOT a morning runner.  Not for me.  Nope, you're not going to see me get out of bed before 6a.m just to fit in my miles.  And I'm surely not going to be out there running in the dark and cold before I've had anything to eat or drink.  Nope, just not for me.  I'm a different kind of runner.

Well, not sure what happened to that runner but this morning I proved her wrong.  I was up by 5:30 putting on my layers of running know, tights, gloves, headlamps, ear warmer, jacket and anything else I could think of to keep my wimpy Oregon self warm.  And I was out the door by 6 for a 10.5 mile run with a friend.  No coffee needed.  I was just up and at it because I wanted to be out there.

Honestly, it wasn't so bad.  The first few miles were so slow because I couldn't see anything even with my head lamp but once the sun started coming up and we got over the biggest chunk of elevation gain, it was smooth sailing and I could feel my spirits lift at the idea of being out there under the open sky.  Cold but dry.  Another promise of blue skies and sunshine to come.  A rare treat in Oregon this time of year. And I was home in time to walk my first grader to school and prepare for my day.

And my oh my, I never knew there were so many runners in my neighborhood!  Runners everywhere.  Headlamps, tights, gloves...others out there just like me.  Crazy.  It was like a bunch of zombies only runners...just out there running the dark streets before the rest of the world wakes up.   A girl could get used to this.

Unfortunately, morning runs outside are not an option for me (usually) unless I want to leave the house by 5 to be back in time for my husband to leave for work.  Nope, 5 isn't happening.  My husband leaves too early for work and usually it is raining anyway. He's been home the last couple of days so I've been lucky to get outside more.  Yesterday, I had an almost 9 mile run in the afternoon sunshine and although it was cold, it was so wonderful to be outside without rain.  Made me feel like I was in Colorado again.  Cold, crisp, sunny and blue skies.

Treadmill to Road Transfer
The dreadmill.  Yep, the treadmill isn't a favorite in the running community.  I happen to like it and I've always trained for my marathons on treadmills during the winter.  Yes, it can be monotonous and Yes, I agree that you need to switch it up and balance it with outside runs too.  In fact, I've always done my long runs outside even when I do my midweek runs on the treadmill.  I also know that you should keep the treadmill at a 1% incline or higher.  But here's the thing I love about it the most....I think it helps me get faster!  It is seriously exciting for me to run on the road after running on the treadmill for awhile because I love seeing where my pace falls naturally.  I'm always surprised at how easy a pace feels on the road when it feels so much harder on the treadmill.  When I do my training on the treadmill and then hit the road, it is just exciting to feel myself getting stronger and stronger.  So, although it is monotonous and eyepokingly boring sometimes, I really am thankful for my treadmill for a training tool. And I don't have a choice since I'm a stay at home mom of three kids...the treadmill is where I can fit runs in unless I do my runs at night in the dark or in the very very early mornings in the dark.  I say treadmill is my first choice at this point in my life and it is getting me through my training.  Thank goodness for youtube...I can LEARN and RUN!

Brooks ID Member

I know most of you have heard on Runninghood Facebook by now but I'm so excited to announce that I was chosen to be a 2012 Brooks ID (Inspire Daily) Member.  This year Brooks is sponsoring ID members for different categories.  I'm obviously not part of this thing as an elite runner but rather this is a media sponsorship.  I was chosen for my influence in social media (blog, writing, etc.).  I've wanted to be part of the Brooks ID program for awhile now and so this is very exciting for me!  Especially since I genuinely LOVE Brooks!  I had never run in Brooks shoes until last year and I can honestly say that they are the best shoes I've ever had.  I will never go back to any other shoe.  It is kind of like finding a good pair of jeans.  You know what you like and you stick with it.  I can't wait to try some of their Pure Flows and get some T7 Racing Flats!  2012 is going to be a great year and I can't wait to share my love for Brooks with anyone that will listen.  Thank you Brooks!  I'm honored to represent your company.

A motherhood post coming soon about helping our children love themselves.  It is so hard when we see our children struggle and even heartbreaking when we find out that they have been hurting and hating themselves when we didn't have a clue.  There is a lot I am processing right now and things that I'm learning for the first time in my time as a mother. My heart is heavy and hurting a bit. So much of what I've learned as an individual and athlete when it comes to positive self  talk and believing in ourselves will help me deal with the things I'm currently facing as a mother.  I love my children so very deeply and as all mothers do, I want to see my children thrive and love themselves and others fully. And when they don't and they struggle....ah, this hurts more than anything because I love them more than anything.  More to come...

Happy Friday!
1.  Do you train on a treadmill?  Do you notice that the transfer from road to treadmill proves to be a confidence boost?  
2.  Are you an early morning runner?  



  1. Starting from the bottom up: I'm so sorry one of the kiddos is struggling a bit. You are the best support system he/she could ask for, though, so things will work out.

    Brooks--congrats! What a fun gig. And the Pure Flows rock, for the record.

    I'm glad you like the treadmill. I have used mine for speedwork before and it is pretty good and effective, I will concede!

  2. There is nothing worse than your child hurting.

    As for the Brooks, awesome!!! I started running in the Green Silence about 6 months ago and love love love them. Can't wait to try the Pure Project ones and get some trail shoes too.

    I used to be anti-treadmill but if I had one I would definitely use it. Some days it's just needed. As for early mornings, I've kind of fallen out of the habit but still enjoy a good early morning run every so often. It's much harder in the cold, dark, rainy winter.

  3. Congrats, on both the morning run and the Brooks thing! I love Brooks, too.

    I definitely noticed that I was faster on the road after the treadmill, but I have yet to try dark morning running.

    I am looking forward to your parenting post. We had a recent conversation in my house that made me realize that my daughter does not have a great opinion of herself. Heartbreaking.

  4. I very rarely run on a treadmill, but I always find that paces feel harder on that thing, so it makes sense that it is helping you get faster! All the power to ya!

    Nice morning run, girl! I don't love getting out of bed so early, but I can usually rally up some company for an early run and I just love getting it done early so I can get on with my day!

  5. I love early morning runs but not when my alarm goes off at the crack of dawn. I always remind myself when I'm in my warm bed that I will regret it later if I skip that morning run... usually that gets me going. There's nothing like kicking yourself for the rest of the day for missing a morning workout!

    Congrats on the Brooks ID! How cool.

    And I so can't wait to get back into running. So so so so can't wait. :)

  6. Morning runner here - this morning was soooo cold! But I like getting it over with early and not having it hang over my head. I can't speak about the t-mill because I don't have one and don't belong to a gym.

    Sorry about the mommy hurt - it's so tough when they are struggling. Hang in there!

    Congrats on Brooks deal - awesome!

  7. Wishing you and your kids the best. I cannot imagine this kind of pain...
    I am a morning runner but mix it up with evenings as well. I kind of like to be out there when it is quiet. I also have so many lights/reflective gear on I am like a sparkler. :)

  8. Total morning runner. In fact, I've transitioned to later in the day since my teaching semester has ended, and I'm finding that I have to stop to poop on my afternoon runs. Boo!!! (TMI?)

    You are awesome embracing the treadmill like that. Wish I could say the same! Things have to be dire around here for me to get on it.

    Hope you figure out the kiddo stuff. Mine will sometimes blurt out really hurtful things about themselves. Hard. I hope it's a phase that will pass soon.

    I am LOVING my PureFlows, BTW.

  9. From the top:)

    Congrats on getting out there this morning!!! I hate the first few minutes but then it usually feels great to be running early! Unfortunately any morning outdoor runs are now done for me. Temps are too cold at 5 am! The treadmill is a necessity in my life too. I have NO hills and cold temps. I guess I can choose to obsess about whether using the treadmill will hinder me or I can look back and see that I've trained before in cold temps and no hills constantly relying on the TM and still ran a 7 minute marathon PR!! I definitely think it has it's benefits!

    So happy for you about Brooks! Such a great opportunity!

    I'm really looking forward to your motherhood post...Thinking of you so much as you process here.

    OK-you've inspired me to attempt my run:)

  10. I am an early morning runner. It used to be that if I didn't run first I didn't run at all. However, I have started to enjoy the afternoon run, so I'm growing as a person.

    I am so glad to hear that everyone else thinks the pace is a challenge on the treadmill. I thought I was the only one. It is such a struggle to hold a slower pace on the treadmill for me. But when I go for a run outside it is easier, just like you said. I'm glad that I am not loosing my mind (well, in this matter anyway)!

    I am sorry to hear about the parenting struggles. I have 4 girls and worry about how I can help them have a positive self image. I look forward to your advice.

  11. I love morning runs more than afternoon runs. Nothing like a good run to get you ready for the what the day will through at you! As a mother, I can understand what you are going through. Be strong for your children and they will pull through whatever it is that they are going through. A mother's love is what they truely need. Hope all turns out well.

  12. Amanda,
    I started reading your blog a few weeks ago and I love it. You are an amazing person. I do most of my training on the treadmill during the winter because as a stay-at-home mom it's the easiest way to get my training in. I am an early morning runner, and I get up at 5 to run on the gym's treadmill sometimes even though I have my own because I like to get out of the house. I don't mind running in the cold, but I don't like the dark. Hubby is a school teacher/coach who leaves before the sun comes up and doesn't get home until after dark. And yes, I'm always amazed at the pace I run on the roads after spending time on the treadmill. The road seems so much easier!

  13. First of all, CONGRATULATIONS! Brooks is well represented by you my talented, speedy friend.

    I;m so sorry your heart is weighing heavy right now. Thinking of you and the kids.

    I agree the TM can help you make speed gains there are so many times during the week, I wish we had one in our lil home.

  14. SO EXCITING ABOUT BROOKS!! You are incredible!! I am definitely a treadmill lover and I agree that it helps me get faster too. I always put it on 1-2% incline. Yay for an early morning run!

  15. Look at you, Miss 5 am.!!

    What a great job with the crack of dawn thing. You must be on top of the world with the build up right now :)

    I understand your hurt- looking forward to the motherhood post.

    Congrats on the Brooks deal! You will be a great representative for them. I LOVE their shoes too. Sold on the Brooks Ghost 4s. The BEST for my feet in training.

  16. major congrats on the brooksID!!!!

    i used to spend tons of time on the treadmill and now i really struggle with it, but i think it's because all I have is facing this weird window and i feel wobbly

  17. Guess I'll have to start running on the mill. On a second thought, nope:) Happy is working for you. Nice mileage this week, and nice paces. Great build up.

    KIds - I think they all have ups and downs. Mine had his shared, I'd get worried, and then in a couple of weeks , boom, gone! Always painful bc as mothers we want them never to struggle. But struggle is good for them when we are there to help. You are a super mama, so no worries:)

    Brooks - congrats, I think you are going to be an awesome ambassador for them!

  18. Early risers are called larks and I've been one for all of my life. I know how you feel though because I cannot stand running in the evening.

  19. My husband got me a treadmill for Christmas and I am so excited. Yes, some would say it is boring but for me, it means I can run while my toddler is asleep and my husband is off to work early in the morning or staying late at night! Hoping to get more miles now that I have this option. And congrats on the Brooks gig. I have run in Brooks since college and swear they are the best shoe for me!

  20. I STILL can't believe you got up and ran that early! you go girl! welcome to my life! ha! perhaps Steph and i will coax you out one morning afterall? is that who you ran with ? steph?
    anyway...great job on getting out the door, I know it's not your fav that early in the morning.
    and CONGRATS on the Brooks! SO so so awesome and So deserving for you! I love it when good things happen to good people!

    I hope the kiddlets are okay? they are all so sweet . Good thing they have such an unbelieveable mother like you Amanda! seriously, blessed they are.

    Love you.

  21. Congratulations on the Brooks thing! My friend has a pair of the Pure series trail shoes and loves them. I swear, they probably have their on toothbrush in her bathroom she loves them so much.

    I'm not a fan of the treadmill except for speedwork. If I had my own nice one, maybe I'd think differently. It's definitely a useful tool, and for me it builds mental toughness because I'd much rather read than watch TV while I'm running (like I can on the bike), but I can't on the TM.

    I used to be a morning runner. All through my half marathon and marathon training. I'm not sure what happened to my discipline. I hated hated getting up early, but I loved it once I was out the door and most especially loved it when I could tell someone at work that I had already run 8 miles. :) Of course, at my pace that meant getting up at 4;15 to get in the miles before getting up my kids and showering.

    Hope your daughter is OK. Growing up is hard, even with amazing parents like she has. And it's hard to watch as they struggle. Hugs

  22. It is so hard to watch your kids struggle...just makes my heart ache.

    Huge congrats on Brooks! Love their shoes and clothes - I really want the Pure Flows!

    I'm still learning to embrace the treadmill.

  23. I'm an early morning treadmill runner- 4:30am!
    I definitely think I have gotten faster on it. I do all my speed work on it. Sorry to hear about your little one- that's tough!

  24. Wow, I can't NEVER get up to run during the week, I'm SO proud of you!!
    So, I feel for you and you sweet little one. As moms, no matter how old are children are, we carry their pain. This is just what we do! However, know that struggles, even with the little ones, are times for them to learn new lessons about themselves and their relationships with others. Lately, about five moms have talked to be about issues with their kids and I actually see these issues in class but it's a privilege to see these kids actually work through things even though it's hard. Watching little ones grow up and work through the hard times makes me happy because I know that this is THEIR time. Once they hit adolescence and the teens, it's more difficult. Rejoice that the difficulties are apparent and that you are there to support, hug and cheer the m on.
    You are such a great mom...

  25. Oops, "can't never." I think that's a double negative. Tee hee, sorry! Total typo!

  26. congrats on the brooks id! so exciting! i'm not really a morning runner either, but i used to be in my younger days. now i need some type of fuel and coffee before i run or else i feel like i'm still asleep.

  27. Congratulations on being chosen as a Brooks ID member! I'm sure you will represent them well.

  28. Sorry to hear that you have a heavy heart right now. So sad when loved ones are struggling.

    Congratulations to Brooks for choosing you! You will be a wonderful ambassador and they are lucky to have you, Amanda. Win-win for sure.

    Nice going on the early run. I like to run early, but not in the dark. I have started running late mornings now.

  29. Im very anxious to hear more of your motherhood post...such a sensitive subject, I do so much appreciate your perspective and your thoughts. My daughters are 7 & 5 and this seems to really hit home.

    Im also curious about things you are finding on youtube for inspiration? Any good starting search words or links you find especially interesting?

  30. There's something pretty special about being out running when most of the world is still in bed. Watching the sun come up and feeling so at peace with the earth. And it's nice to get the run done early in the day.

    I really hope your baby who's having the struggle at the moment can work things through with your guidance. We know how amazing and wonderful our progeny is, so it's so hard to believe that sometimes they can't see it themselves. You'll have to put on your psychologist's hat and give them lots of hugs. I can certainly understand the heaviness you're feeling. I've felt that a lot in the last year.

  31. Some day I long to be THAT girl---up with the birds and out for a run to start my day! Mark my words, it WILL happen!

    Sarah @ Thinfluenced

  32. I'm so sorry that your lovies are struggling. You are an amazing mom. I am sure it breaks your heart to see them struggle but I also know you are an amazing support for them.

    Kudos on the Brooks gig! Very cool!

    I have by default become a morning takes getting used to! I usually train for my early Spring/Winter races on the mill with my long runs outside. I actually think it improves my speed!

  33. Funny thing I just read somewhere that 1% stuff isn't really that neccessary.. I used the mill for my mid week runs now and my recovery runs, I'm getting to like it more.

  34. Congrats on Brooks!! That is an awesome opportunity and I know you will do a great job representing them!

  35. Good for you on the morning thing! Wow! I'll bet it helps to have a partner to run with. I have such a hard time in the morning myself :P

    Congrats on the Brooks thing! That is so super cool :)

    And you are such a great mom. So so thoughtful and hard-working. I am always so impressed by you in this arena :)

  36. Congrats on the Brooks ID! That's so awesome and I'm really happy for you! Sweet! I don't hate the treadmill because it's better than nothing and I also find that once I get back on the road after a lot of TM running that the road feels great and I'm usually faster than I was before. It's pretty awesome. I am not a morning runner. I do it sometimes but it's pretty rare. I would like to get better about it though.

  37. if i had a choice, every run would be an early morning run. there is something about running in the calm and dark and watching the sunrise...knowing that not many people get to see that makes it all worth it! i LOVE having my run done before anything else that day. makes me feel accomplished.

    hope all is well with your kids.

  38. I am 100% a morning runner. If I don't get it started by 8:00 AM (winter) or 5:00 AM (summer)I just will not do it at all. I am my best the first part of the day. I don't own a treadmill and probably never will, but if someone gave me one as a present I might use it during hurricanes. ;o)

  39. I love running in the mornings

    I'm not a fan of the treadmill,but it does come in handy when the weather is to bad to run outside.

    I know when Iour kids are hurting, we ourself are hurting right along with them. Have you and your family in my prayers.

  40. I love running in the mornings

    I'm not a fan of the treadmill,but it does come in handy when the weather is to bad to run outside.

    I know when Iour kids are hurting, we ourself are hurting right along with them. Have you and your family in my prayers.

  41. Your a great Brooks ID member. Sometimes I think they give them to people who aren't very inspiring but they did good with you :)

    I love hearing about how you fit your runnign life into your mommy life. I admire that. And I love the positive spin on the treadmil.

  42. Congrats on the Brooks ID. I am on the team for 2012 too! Can't wait!!!!