Showing posts with label finding balance. Show all posts
Showing posts with label finding balance. Show all posts

Monday, October 24, 2011

Nurturing the Whole Athlete



Balance.  It isn't anything new.  So many of us seek it and it is never something we end up having for too long before we lose it and start seeking it out again.  There are so many roles we lead in life.  Mother, wife, friend, athlete, teacher...the list goes on.  So many parts to us that need nurturing in order to be our best self.  Our whole self.  And this is true as an athlete too.

As I finish up here with my Monday strength training, a new routine to get my soon-to-be Boston Marathon training off to a great start, my head is full of dreams and possibilities.  I'm thinking of the treadmill I'm going to get, lofty goals of getting up to 80 miles a week and how I'm going to fit it all in.  My mind is spinning with what training plan I should choose, how to plug it all in a chart, and what books I should read.  I'm thinking of threshold pace, tempo runs, base pace, VDOT (whatever that means), and so many other terms that I am trying to wrap my head around in hopes of being on track for running the best marathon of my life.

With every push-up and lunge in my living room this morning, I was hyper aware of all the thoughts spinning around in my head and I realized just how easy it is to get off balance with the rest of our life.  As athletes we are so used to focusing on our goals that we sometimes lose sight of all the non-running/athletic aspects of our life that are equally important in living a a balanced life and nurturing the WHOLE us and essentially...


The WHOLE ATHLETE.  

Having big running and athletic goals requires consistent and focused physical training.  Dedication.  Mileage, speed work, long runs and injury prevention.  So much.  But just as with anything in our life, we are best at what we do when we are giving to other areas of our life, our brain, and our being.  We thrive when we are BALANCED.   As cliche as it is, that Mind-Body-Spirit connection isn't anything to stop seeking.  I'm convinced that it is what will be KEY to reaching my running goals.

So, how do I find balance?  What areas of my life will I have to be ultra-conscious of taking time for when I get immersed in the depths of marathon training?  In addition to fitting in mileage and workouts, here's a list of some of the things I will be working into my marathon training plan to make sure that I am nurturing my whole self...all of my brain, spirit, and mind, in addition to my body.

*  Added later in response to a couple of comments.  I'd like to clarify that these things are only things that I will be drawing from.  Think of it like having a bucket that I might draw from...my BALANCE Bucket!  I find that when I am immersed in marathon training, I am too tired to reflect and be super aware of all of the other things I'm letting go.  Because of this, important things like family, relationships and nurturing my spirit tend to go to the wayside and this ISN'T okay with me.  Yes, I want to do it all...wouldn't that be nice but most of all I want to make sure that I don't get in a one track mindset and become obsessed with this one marathon goal.  I know myself enough to know how obsessive I can be.  These are all things that I will put in my balance bucket to draw from here and there as I train.  Certainly, I won't be filling all of these things every day or week but they will be reminders of things I don't want to forget!  Maybe I will even put them on paper and place them in a basket or bucket so that I can occasionally draw them out and read them...something tangible!  So, I hope these don't overwhelm you...they are only meant to be reminders and not things that I will be doing ALL THE TIME!  I'm not superhuman nor do I want to be.  

  • Focused Time With My Kids--intentional one-on-one time with my kids when I try to shut off my running brain and NOT think/obsess over my goals.  This will be important for me to make an active goal because it is so easy to let opportunities pass me by when I am focused on a big goal.  
  • Nutrition--I'm going to HAVE to plan better meals that will feed and fuel my marathon training self.  The good thing is that my husband will be training for a marathon as well so we will can help each other with this.  Our kids will benefit from from this too!  Bring on the quinoa, protein shakes, brown rice, kale, etc.  We are pretty healthy already but I'm not the best at making sure I'm getting all my nutrients when I'm not training. 
  • Spiritual Time--This is different for everyone.  For me this will come from reflecting, praying, and really thinking about my life and my world from an outside perspective.  Being Still with myself.
  • Using my gifts to GIVE to others--It is always rewarding and energizing when we are sharing our gifts with others and making a difference.  I'd like to find a way to take time to volunteer, be part of a group, or find a leadership role where I can make a difference.  This might mean just accepting the job of doing the once a month mommy-and-me story hour.  I can certainly put on my teacher hat and read some stories and get a group of preschoolers movin' and groovin'.  Perhaps I'll finally get that women's running/writing/journal group going!  
  • Time for Learning--Learning about things other than just Running!  
  • Relationships--It will be important for me to be conscious of making time for my girlfriends, husband, mom, etc.  So easy to just be all about me, me, me but I can't just let my relationships fall to the wayside for the next 24 weeks.  BALANCE Amanda!  
  • Relaxation--Imagine that, relaxation is good for us?!  I will make time to just sit on the couch and watch a movie or read a mindless magazine!  This is hard for me since I rarely slow down.  
  • Creative Expression.  I've said it many times before and I'll say it again and again, I strongly believe that despite our insistence that we don't have a creative bone in our body, we all have some way that we can tap into the creative parts of our brain.  It is different for everyone.  And it doesn't have to be conventional.  I think this is just one way to nurture our whole brain since we are doing so much of the analytical stuff when we are processing paces, numbers, charts, and time goals.  I might choose to do this by doing art with my kids, writing, journal collages, maybe even cooking. Definitely spending time in my FORT!
  • Yoga--We see it all the time.  Runners who are super motivated and excited to train train train only to hit the wall with injury or overtraining.  One of the ways I want to make sure to fit in body, mind, spirit balance and keeping my body stretched and relaxed.  
  • Personal Journal Dates--As you all know, I connect with myself the most deeply through reflection and time in my journal.  This is where I really dig deep with Amanda!  I spend time listing gratitude, setting goals, reevaluating, and processing.  I HAVE to make time for this at least once a week if not every morning.  My blog time sometimes gets in the way of that but it is important for me to not let that go.  I have many journals...marriage journals, kid journals, running journals but my personal journal is essential for making sure this WHOLE Self nurturing really happens!  

There are so many other things I could add to this list.  Balance isn't easy.  Otherwise, there wouldn't be so many of us trying to attain it.  What do you want to make more time for in order to nurture your WHOLE Self or WHOLE Athlete?  


Happy Monday!
Amanda

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Balance. Wanting. Holocaust. Resilience. Determination. Fire.

I've only been on one run since my marathon on the 4th of July.  Not because my body isn't up to it.  Not because I'm tired or injured.  Just because I have been enjoying the art of being lazy.  It has been wonderful to not have a workout to fit in or a schedule to keep.  I am starting to miss running a little bit so tonight will be my first solo run (I've been on one with a jogger stroller) in 11 days!  I'm looking forward to just running because it feels good and because I love it and not because I'm training for something or have a goal in mind.  In fact, I'm enjoying this down time so much that I might not "train" for the half marathon I have in October or the Hood to Coast in August.  Our HTC team is a fun team anyway but I'm thinking the half marathon might just be a fun race too.  My next big thing to train for just might be Boston!  


Random:
*  Time.  I've really got to start finding a way to manage my time more wisely.  I'm naturally an obsessive person so when I start something new and I want to do it well, my life can get a little off balance.  I want to make it a goal to focus on BALANCE! I'm thinking I need to just set a certain time that I will give to say starting this new site with my mom, or answering e-mail, reading my books, even cleaning up the never-ending messes around my house....I need to set a time limit and then move on to just BEING with my kids and enjoying them!!  If I don't make a conscious effort to do this then before I know it, the day is over and I realize that I didn't really sit down and play with them at all but rather I just delegated, shuffled them to and fro, put out fights...managed them.  I don't want to just "manage my kids"  I want to be a part of their life.  I want to laugh with them, play with them, watch them, listen to the funny things they say, observe, and just be part of the moment.  So to go with my goal to make time for mindfulness and meditation, I want to make time for Balance!
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*  I did Jillian Michael's Trouble Zones workout yesterday.  Only half of it really. I hurt! My chest, legs, arms....wooo weee....you'd think I was completely out of shape.  Speaking of good ol' Jillian, check out this interview she did with Suze Orman.  


*  I'm reading The Book Thief for my book club book. Such a good book! The Holocaust never ceases to shock me.  As it should.  I hope we never cease to be sensitive and aware of what happened during that time.  I'm only halfway through the book so far but it already has me thinking about so much.  Makes me realize just how resilient the human spirit is.  More later on this book.  


*  I had a great conversation with a friend today about the people in our lives that have the greatest determination.  I think there is something to be said about having a childhood where you are not just given everything but you're left to want a little.  Or at least a childhood where you are taught to earn things and work hard for them.  And most importantly, being taught a sense of gratitude for the things you are given.  I want my kids to be raised to WANT things for themselves and to have that edge to their life that allows them to have so much left to discover and work towards.  I never want to just give them whatever they want and spoil them so that they are bored with things that some kids would find simple AMAZING and Magical!  Anyway, more on this in another post...just got me thinking.    


*  My husband is on fire!  On fire with running.  He wants to read about it, thinking about it, talk about it, dream...eat...sleep...poop about it.  Pretty cool.  I wish we had some more time before the Boston registration because there is no doubt in my mind that he could qualify but I just don't know how smart it would be to try for that before September without proper training.  Since we are already flying there, it would be pretty cool if he could run too.  We shall see.  For now, I'm really loving seeing him all fired up about something I love so much too!  


* A local giveaway coming tomorrow.  I might have to find a twist to it since it is for people around here...not so sure I have enough Runninghood readers to enter so I'll have to open it up to non Runninghood readers and let them comment on facebook or something.  More on that later too.  


*  One last thing.  I love all of your comments.  Love them.  It is really hard for me to respond to all of them lately and read a ton of blogs but please know that your comments matter to me and that I'm not just being a snob.  Just another part of trying to find balance in my life.  


Balance, balance, balance.  




Amanda

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Taping the Garmin, Running by Feel and Over Another Bump

Before my run.  The girls were having a little pamper session with their dolls in the sunshine.  Everyone in Portland was feeling the sunshine love today!


I woke up this morning feeling kind of defeated.   I was scared to run my 20 plus miles today and thought seriously about taking a third day off and maybe even a week.  I was still exhausted and my ankle/heel was feeling just weird enough that I was so scared to do anything that might make it turn into a serious injury.  I wrote one of my dear blog friends and told her that I felt like I didn't even want to finish out this training cycle.  I seriously felt like quitting.  For several reasons:
* Fear of injury that would keep me from enjoying running for the soul food that it is
*  The time it would allow me to just be with my family and BREATHE without having to fit in my workouts that are getting increasingly harder
* The pressure I've been putting on myself to meet goals that I've set for myself
*  I'm just TIRED!

Of course I would never quit.  I wouldn't just throw in the towel.  I know this.  And I also know that I'm almost there.  I only have 4 or 5 more weeks until my marathon and I'm just getting tired.  This Matt Fitzgerald Plan is 24 weeks.  This includes the base building stages and it gradually works up to serious training.  But still, 24 weeks is a long time to have your eye on a goal!

I'm so thankful for my friendship with Jenn.  I wake up almost every morning with an e-mail from her that makes me smile, laugh, learn something, be inspired, etc.  I'm amazed that I've made such a dear friend through the blog world, e-mails, and text.  I've never even talked to her in person but I feel like if I did, it would be as if I'd known her all along.  Her e-mail to me this morning was just what I needed to read to get me over this hump and find my mojo again!  Thanks Jenn.  Here's part of her e-mail in response to my feelings of wanting to be DONE:

And this too shall pass.  I promise!   You're normal.  24 weeks is a VERY long training cycle-bound to have ups and downs.  A lot of emotion this time around for you coming off an injury and racing 3 big races already.   I could feel a REAL passion in you after your last race, a GREAT self-confidence!!  It's still there FOR SURE-just buried a little this week:)  Burnout is sometimes  temporary-busy week, so many factors.  I'm wondering if this half marathon and kind of thinking about whether you should make an actual race plan has just temporarily put you over the edge.....pressure from a self imposed "bar" that you now somehow need to meet.  Maybe I'm WAY off base and I'm stepping out on a limb here...This I know- Pressure can lead to a lack of confidence.  A lack of confidence can lead to a lack of desire.....  Your Mojo will come back if you LET it, don't force it!   You are one talented runner, Amanda.  No doubt about that!!  Thinking of you!


I think we can all learn or be inspired from Jenn's words because I know that I'm not alone in these struggles.  She's right on all levels and she nailed it about my self imposed "bar" that I'm setting for myself.  But, after my 20.5 miles for today, I'm feeling my confidence come back!  Thanks Jenn!


Taping the Garmin
I ran a total of 20.5 miles today.  My first 2.5 was with my daughter on our way home from the park.  She rode her bike and I ran along side her.  After that short run in the sunshine and 60ish degree weather, I was feeling pretty good and knew that I could do my long run.  So, I came home, loaded some music on my ipod (I usually run without music most of the time), battled my urge to want to take a long long nap, filled up my water and I was out the door.  


And I ran with Tape over my Garmin.  


I ran by heart!  This was AMAZING!  I just ran my natural pace that felt like base for me and trusted myself to just run without worrying about time or splits or anything.  I ran by feel for 18.13 miles and I'm convinced that I will be doing this again and again.  


I'm proud of myself for several reasons here:
*  My splits were overall very consistent...especially if you take the hills into account.  
*  The second half of my run was faster than the first.  This is huge for me!  
*  I listened to my body and I stopped at 18 and walked the extra mile home so that I didn't push it too much today.  


Here are my splits
Average:  7:53








100:08:161.0008:16
200:08:151.0008:15
300:08:141.0008:14
400:08:161.0008:16
500:07:571.0007:57
600:07:311.0007:31
700:07:321.0007:32
800:07:551.0007:55
900:07:441.0007:44
1000:07:551.0007:55
1100:07:481.0007:48
1200:08:001.0008:00
1300:08:061.0008:06
1400:07:441.0007:44
1500:07:131.0007:13
1600:07:441.0007:44
1700:07:571.0007:57
1800:07:491.0007:49
1900:01:080.1308:2



Excited to have a week of enjoyable running where I listen to my body and embrace the art of BALANCE.  I have a half-marathon on Sunday as a tune-up race and I am going to go into it with a goal to enjoy myself and run hard.  No time goal.  Just to run strong and have fun! This works for me.

Stretching after my run.  Had to include this picture only because I think it is hilarious that my mom's dog decided to take a dump right when the picture was taken.  Mom, if you're reading this, Mo just wanted to get in a little bit of the action.  He knew I might be putting this on my blog and he wanted to help me out.  


Amanda