Tuesday, September 25, 2012


What's in a blog?  Some of us write for fun.  Some write to log their miles and share their training for something.  There are blogs about cooking, travel, sewing...there's a blog about everything.  You name it, I bet it's there.  Many of us start a blog to share and express what we are most passionate about.  Our blogs give us a voice.  A connection to others with similar interests.  We learn from blogs...reading them and writing them.  And many of us grow in the process of keeping one.

I originally started my blog in 2010 after a very serious hamstring injury that left me pretty depressed and facing a crossroads in my life.  I wanted more.  I needed more.  I was new to being a stay at home mom and without running in my life, I was missing my career.  I was missing a piece of me and an opportunity to express myself and use my mind on a deeper level than just telling kids to "use their words" or setting up sticker charts and teaching them to use the potty without peeing all over the floor. All good work.  Work that lasts a lifetime when it comes to building a strong foundation for my family.  But it was work that left me feeling so under stimulated in the intellectual and personal areas.  I needed something else...a piece of me.  So, at the suggestion of a friend, I started writing a blog.  Since then, my blog has been a personal journey where I find safety in sharing my heart, goals, snippets of life that touch me and so much more.  And most importantly, writing my blog has given me an opportunity to GROW so deeply as Amanda.  Amanda the runner.  Amanda the wife, mother and friend.  And probably, most of all, I've been able to work through some of the grief I'd held on to regarding the death of my father and the spiritual/religious struggles that have impacted me so deeply.  This blog has certainly been an important part of me where I can be real and vulnerable.  I can be whatever I am at the moment I am writing.  Because of this freedom to express myself as I come, I've made some pretty special connections with some of you.  I've received e-mails from people expressing similar feelings to the feelings I share and thanking me for sharing myself.  This is great validation in the freedom that comes (for me) with being real and sharing my heart.....

So, why stop now?  I surely think there is time for quiet and keeping things to ourselves and this has been so much of my life lately.  I don't share everything going on in my heart.  Especially on a blog.  But if I'm going to keep this blog up, I might as well keep being as REAL as I can....it's what Runninghood is.

What I do know right now is that I'm dealing with some things in my heart and my head that have left me feeling pretty heavy.  My heart hurts.  My head is heavy with a barrel full of questions.  I feel a little cloudy when it comes to what is REAL and what is FAKE.  What is a lie and what is truth.  I feel just a little lost.  But you know, I'm certain that after dealing with some of these current issues that have come up recently, I am going to come out of this

Life ALWAYS works this way.  Always.  With every heartbreak comes a new layer of wisdom.  With every painful moment in life where we are knocked down and lose ourselves, we have the CHOICE to pick ourselves back up and make ourselves BETTER and healthier.  Find us.  It's what gives us drive to conquer new goals and reach for the things we might have thought were unattainable or that we weren't strong enough for.  Because of this, the things hurting me now (and for awhile now), give me HOPE.  As much as I feel awful, I also have an equal amount of warmth wrapped around me that  makes me so sincerely excited for what's to come.  I know that whatever is going on with me right now means that the road ahead is going to be a good one...I know this.   Resilience.  It's what makes the human psyche so interesting.  So much greatness can come from struggle.  So MUCH.

So, here's to the struggles in life as well as the good times.  Here's to the LOWS to go with the HIGHS.   Here's to the wisdom, strength and life hunger that comes from painful circumstances. Here's to the soulful laughter that will replace the cries of disappointment and loss. Here's to the friendships that will be deepened because of saying farewell to the relationships that were no good for us.  And here's to the EVERYTHING that will come from doing what it takes to heal and have a better tomorrow....for myself, my children, and those that I truly LOVE.  For what's REAL.   I'm excited to see what the next few months of climbing up will hold for Life.  Truly excited.  Hopeful.  And this brings me peace.

What lies behind you and what lies in front of you,
pales in comparison to what lies inside of you.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Promise me you’ll always remember: You’re braver than you believe,
and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.
Christopher Robin to Pooh (by A. A. Milne)

Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall. Confucius

In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity.
Albert Einstein

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Note:  I still haven't been able to connect with the winner of the Endorphin Warrior Bracelet so I will be choosing a new winner sometime this week.   You can also check out my friend Tayarra's giveaway for another really good chance to win.


  1. Prayers for you and whatever it is you are dealing with. But I love your perspective, you do have to have hurtful times sometimes but it only makes you stronger. Prayers for peace and for you to be surrounded by love and support!

  2. I'll echo The Unlikely Runner here.

    Love, love, love this post!

  3. What a great post, thank you. Your perspective on life is always so perfect, you are such an amazingly strong woman... mentally and physically. You definitely have my admiration. ♥

    I love that Emerson quote, it is one of my favorites.

  4. Sending you some more STRENGTH for whatever you've got going on. You are a beautiful person:)

  5. Your so right Amanda. When we go through hardships, whatever that may be, it makes us stronger than we thought were. I hate having to go through heavy things,but I know He wont for sake me and I will be better and stronger because of it. My prayers are with you and your family.

  6. Amen Amanda, Amen! Obstacles in life truly mold us into who we are. I've faced my many trials (eating disorder, drug addiction, death, ect...) and without these trials I would absolutely not be the person I am today. I have grown and blossomed because of what I have been through. We will never be given an obstacle we are not capable of overcoming. The road may not be easy, and we may have to start over several times but we must have faith that we are capable of overcoming it. I think the hardest thing about trials (for me) is asking for and accepting help. I pride myself on being strong and always think I can do everything on my own but sometimes we need to lean on those we love and trust.

  7. Thank you for being brave enough to share your life with us and smart enough to know when it is time to take time for yourself. I enjoy reading your posts and appreicate your trueness. Is that even a word? It is now.

    Jen Murphine

  8. Ahh-you beautiful soul!

    What a gift you have with words. What a wonderful powerful gift you've been given. A gift you've been given for YOU... "I can be whatever I am at the moment I am writing" and SURELY a gift you've been given to touch others. I remember why you started your blog but I almost forgot until reading it again now! Easy for me to remember why I started reading though;)

    Trials in life, blessings in disguise...Resilience, YES!

    You have a very REAL heart. I only know a very loving, passionate, conflicted at times, REAL person. Very wise and one who has exhibited a REMARKABLE strength even when completely broken.....a strength and a love for yourself that is really so amazingly powerful to witness...

    I'M excited to see what the next few months of climbing up will hold for your life!! I'm so thankful to know you. So thankful.

  9. How ironic...I stopped my blog. Self reflection makes me nervous. But I gain insight to some of my issues through reading your blog. Soyhanks for keeping it up! And bless you and your journey...and hopefully the heart will heal soon!

  10. One day all the hard stuff your going through now will be history. And you will be a stronger person for it. That's what I keep telling myself - and one day I know it will be.

  11. Hey Amanda. You're a tough cookie but sensitive so while I know you can handle whatever life brings you, I know you also feel all of it! Thinking of you and praying for healing, comfort, wisdom, peace, or whatever you need right now. XO.

  12. You are so HONEST about it all. Not sure how you can let it all out and not be afraid of who is reading, or what others think. That is COURAGE.
    The low low valleys are where we learn what we are made of. And when we stand on that mountain and look out at what it took to get there, there is great satisfaction.
    Praying that whatever the Lord is working in you right now will feed your spirit and help you grow in new ways.

  13. This too shall pass! Yes, things like these make us stronger and wiser. Take the time you need to feel it all and pretty soon you will have clarity. You have lots of friends ready to listen and help should you need it. Lots of love to you! AM

  14. I have been thinking about you lately and hope that everything is okay. The last paragraph about really reached out to me. It sums up the way I have been feeling lately. I keep telling myself that it will eventually pass and that is what keeps me moving everyday. Thanks for writing something so honest and so meaningful.

  15. Beautifully written, Amanda. I love how you said "With every heartbreak comes a new layer of wisdom"- I've found that to be true many times in life. I love how in touch you are with your inner self, your passions, emotions, highs and lows. Thank you for sharing YOU with us. :)

  16. I hope you find the answers you are looking for. It's the not-so-good times in life that make us appreciate the good times. Just like running. We all have bad runs, right?

  17. Thinking of you, girl, and hoping that everything is OK...and that the things that aren't OK right now work out for the good.

  18. I absolutely love your blog and how you are real. I especially love when you are brutally honest with the ups and downs. It's what life is all about. Praying for you. xx

  19. I have no idea what you are dealing with, but if you are looking to make a change, the grass isn't always greener. Sometimes it's better to fix, or make the current situation the best you can rather than change. You are strong and will make it through this stronger and wiser than before for sure. Hope you find peace through it all.