I'd like to say I'm ready to just sit down and write out my Boston race recap but honestly, it just isn't there yet. At least not the kind that is a mile by mile recap where I tell you all about start to finish. Such an interesting experience. It was like nothing I've ever endured in a race. Definitely puts a new meaning to "endurance sport". When I had my head in my hands and feeling chills on a hot day even before I hit 8 miles, I knew this marathon would be a fight to the end.
Funny how a marathon experience really can have so many similarities to how we deal with life. Or at least it seems so to me. When the going got really tough, I pushed through and I didn't quit. I also got extremely emotional (a lot to do with only 2 hours of sleep the night before too) and allowed myself time to process as I was in the midst of fighting through this race. I was a mixed bag of patience and love for myself as well as disappointment in myself. I cried. A lot. Yes, while I was running. This made breathing harder than it already was for me. I found it hard to be in the present and take in the crowds and joy that IS BOSTON because I was trying so hard to come to grips with losing control and letting go of expectations. Again, similar to my life. I can lose control of the present moments if I get too caught up in the whirlwind around me. Another similarity to this race and my life is the role of friendships in making life so much better. Seeing my friends and having one to be with me to the end was what gave me hope for finishing strong.
I tried my best to run a race I was proud of despite the overwhelming weather that was turning the race course into more of a death march than a running event. No joke. So many people seemed to be hurting out there. We slugged through the water stations, tripping over each other and slamming into the people in front of us that weren't making it back to the main stream of runners in time, and lunged for last dixie cups of ice that people were so kind to offer. I ran through every hose, grabbed water at every stop (and had my water belt), put ice in my hat and shirt, and stayed to the right of the road as much as possible in hopes of getting even a sliver of the very small amounts of shade being offered. Even then, I was depleted and left feeling defeated. Walking no longer seemed like something to be upset about. It became necessary. 7:45 mile became 8:15's and 8:15's became 8:58's. Finally, time no longer mattered. In the end, after my dear friend Ana Maria, joined me at mile 19, I felt myself gain hope again. It was then that I reevaluated things and set a new goal of wanting to break 4 hours. Instead of giving up completely, I just wanted a 3 in front of my time. Ana Maria is a no nonsense type of friend (I LOVE this) and I could hear it in her voice that she thought a sub 4 would be challenging with the shape I was in but she also helped me believe that anything was still possible. I can honestly say today that I am proud of my 3:58. I'm proud that I was able to finish even. And to finish at a low 7 pace felt even better. Boston 2012 was a BEAST! My hat goes off to ALL of you that ran it! And so many of you did such an incredible job despite the heat. So many of you!
Boston was an interesting race from the start. All the heat warnings and people telling us what we should do were a distraction to getting in the zone for race day. I was so worked up the night before that sleep was impossible and from there it only got worse. I was running to the start line and barely made it in time for us to take off. I didn't have time to catch my breath, stretch my left leg that is a problem and get myself focused. Note to self: start earlier next year.
Yes, I said next year. I may not be gearing up for my fastest marathon to date but I do want to think about running another marathon in the near future. Something where I can just BQ and then focus on other things. However, for running a PERSONAL WORST marathon time by almost 30 minutes, my legs are trashed. It is 72 hours after the marathon and my legs still hurt horribly. My body took a beating. Maybe this is due to the 10 plus miles of walking in Boston after the race? Or because I didn't do anything that I normally do for recovery...little sleep, bad food, no icing (except on my sore pelvic bone), and tons of walking and being on my feet for the next two days.
Despite the race, Boston was one of the best trips of my life! Even with the race...I mean, what an experience to learn and gain strength from! A gift really. It was a weekend I'll never forget. I had the opportunity to meet up with some special people, be in the same hotel as one of my best friends Nicole (who couldn't run due to injury:(), eat some incredible food and see some really neat places. I also got to spend a considerable amount of time on the phone with my friend Jenn who wasn't able to be in Boston due to injury. This made me feel like she was there anyway. She talked to me all the way up to Hopkinson, the night before, and many other times during the trip. Thanks for going to Boston with me Jenn. I may not have found a blow-up doll to replace you but the phone did just fine. :)
So, there was a bit about Boston. Not sure I'll have an official race report. Perhaps. But maybe not. The gist of it is in here. Here are some photos to tell more of the story.
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Nicole and I at dinner the Saturday before. Trying to be extra positive despite her injury and the heat predictions. Love you Nicole. |
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Nicole and her hubby. Fun night. |
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Love this guy! |
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My best friend! Love that he could be here to hug me after the race. |
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This is one AMAZING woman and friend who carried me home. And one bad ass runner! Source |
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Focused on the finish line. AM was counting down for me. It couldn't come fast enough!! Source |
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Love you AM! Thanks for bringing me home! Source. |
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Thank you Nicole for taking this picture! Running next to sweet AM and Waylon at the top of Heartbreak Hill. This is where hope came back to me. |
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Love Boston. So much history. The Old with the Modern |
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Right after the race. So happy to be done! |
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Beers and fries with Grace right after the race. She was so fast that she had time to go back to the hotel and shower and wash her scabby knee before meeting us. Ha! I was standing on my toes so I could look tall like her. The guy in back ground is grabbing his chaffed balls. |
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I earned this pizza! Yes, I will eat this all by myself! |
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I'll be back Beautiful Boston!!! |
Amanda
We're hot. Too bad that guy photo-bombed us.
ReplyDeleteHa!!! I might not have even noticed that until I read the caption! What in the world?! Lol!
Deleteyou girls are hot! great job to both of you!!!
DeleteHILARIOUS!
DeleteYou guys look great. That guy, not so much!
DeleteLOL Are you kidding? That guy MADE that photo! But I swear I wouldn't have noticed it if it hadn't bee pointed out for me.
DeleteIt took me a few days to write my report because of how emotionally draining that race was. And I, too, compared the race to my life. I feel like in order to finish that race I had to push harder than I have ever which is how I even got to run that race in the first place. And my legs were still a little achy this morning as well. Much better after I ran, but I am still a little sore when sitting into my car. :) Congrats on your sub-4. That race was a beast.
ReplyDeleteLots of FUN here amidst the crazy heat! Really looks like a superfun weekend :) the pics are fantastic! Great job!!!
ReplyDeleteGirl....you are awesome.
ReplyDeleteWhat a crazy funky hot day you endured.
You rock.
Love the photos!
That pizza looks amazing.
The heat was brutal for all of you runners. I am in awe of everyone who ran Boston on Monday and you are all rockstars in my book!
ReplyDeleteLooks like so much fun! Erica
ReplyDeleteI did not run but do not know how you all did it! I had it easier running that marathon last year 12 weeks psittacosis partum. I admire your honesty here- love it.
ReplyDeleteAhh! So good to read! Love all the pics! I will be back after the kids go to bed to read much better!!!
ReplyDeleteMy heart goes out to you Amanda and all the runners who endured those conditions. Just reading about it brings back memories of the heat in Chicago at my first marathon in 2007. Suffering and knowing you have to let go of everything you'd trained for and go into survival mode instead, I'm glad you're going back for a rematch. Thanks for sharing the pics. I am reliving it all vicariously through you!
ReplyDeleteI am totally in awe of you!!! You are the best inspiration I could possibly have as I am starting out running and I am thankful every day that I followed Sherika's link to your blog. I found myself so invested in your journey that I kept talking about "my friend that is running Boston this year", and kept a tab open in my browser at work the whole race to keep track of your progress. I love that you were so open and honest about everything you went through going through this. I look forward to reading about your future races and everything else that you blog about.
ReplyDeleteThank you for letting us take this journey with you!
how incredibly awesome it is that AM was willing to run with you and also "give it to you straight" about expectations. Regardless of your time, i just think its such a humbling experience that you were able to find strength when you didn't know you had it. Great job Amanda!
ReplyDeleteNo one set out to run a personal worst or a slower time than their last, etc. But you know what? You braved it along w/ many of us, you dealt w/ the demons on the course, you knew when to reign it in to ensure you didn't pass out/get sick/etc, and you finished! You're totally allowed to feel "eh" about it, but I hope that soon you will realize just how much of a rockstar you were on Monday.
ReplyDeleteYour non race recap really made me feel like I was there- slugging it out in the heat. You were on such a difficult situation. Having to re-evaluate and create a new pacing strategy mid race is mentally challenging. It is so humbling to let go of our expectations and set new ones. Keeping it under 4 hours was an awesome accomplishment! I'm so glad you had a friend with you at the end. So many lessons learned put there it sounds like.
ReplyDeleteQuick question- you mentioned wanting to start earlier next year. Did you get to the start late? Did you feel rushed? What would you change about your Pre race strategy for next year? Just trying to get ideas for next year... Thanks!!!
OK-I'm back:) Love your writing. Love how you write what you feel and so easily make others feel it too. I know much of your race story already but liked reading some of your reflection here:)
ReplyDeleteWhat an experience!! ALL of it. Crazy uncontrollables. So thankful for you to have AM there on the course. Such an amazing encourager and support for you. I am willing to bet you BOTH learned a lot from this race!
I so enjoyed visiting with you this weekend. I felt like I had done P90X abripper 4X after talking to you on Saturday and I just really felt like I was there at times. Thankyou for that. I don't regret much in life but a part of me will always regret pulling the plug on this trip to Boston, even if I couldn't run!
You are so beautiful. I always say that but you really are. Even after finishing a marathon in THAT you look great! Even running the marathon you look great! I love the picture of you and Nicole and you look like an Olympian in the one with Gracie! Laughing at you standing on your toes too. I'm going to apologize ahead of time for the lack of pillows where your head will sit when I finally give you a hug:)
OK-since I'm not running marathons, I am back to leaving marathon comments. I will release you from reading here but enjoyed ALL the pictures, all your thoughts. Hope you find that BQ marathon because I would sure like another shot to celebrate with you in Boston:)
Oh, and the dude grabbing his chaffed balls..LOL!!!!
ReplyDeleteYou have a HUGE blog. Somebody out there is gonna recognize this guy and show him he's famous-ha!
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DeleteLoved reading this, Amanda. What an amazing experience. Thanks for sharing. Hope those legs are all healed up soon!
ReplyDeleteLove, love, love that pic of Waylon running with you and saying that's where the hope came back!
ReplyDeleteWell, as Kelly Clarkson says, "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger."
ReplyDeleteMy point is that next time you will crush Boston!
ReplyDeleteYou did great, way to go for meeting your modified goal!! You make it look easy. I love all of your muscles!
ReplyDeleteLoved your pictures Amanda. I am glad that despite the race itself you had a wonderful weekend away with Waylon. You deserved that. What a treat to have Nicole in the same hotel as you! It looked like you both had a lot of fun.
ReplyDeleteI think that heat takes more toll on the body then sometimes we realize. Running a marathon in the heat might actually be an equivalent to running an ultra on your body. Perhaps that is why you are still so sore. Maybe racing to the pastry shop before it closed caused it too, lol. Probably not. :-)
I am glad that you are already thinking about Boston next year. I hope that we can all be there together.
Really? THAT is the 2 pictures you post of me? I look horrid in both! ...the first one with you, I am sticking my butt out and my face looks horrible...and the one with steve all you can see is my front crooked tooth!
ReplyDeletethis friendship is OVER.
I hope you know I'm kidding. xx
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ReplyDeleteI am SO proud of you! I could tell you were an emotional mess at heartbreak and wondered if you would finish...I was worried about your health...but you did amazing! you finished STRONG and in conditions like that..what else can you ask for? you are strong, beautiful and FAST!
this marathon was all about weeding out the strong from the weak (mentally speaking).....maybe this was a blessing...you always say that you puss out in races...but you didn't this time, did you? ! you found your strong amanda and I think in doing so, you found a little bit more of that FIGHTER we know is in there! Maybe God thought you need more of a life changing race, than a PR right now.... then your next marathon, that PR will be even BIGGER! sure love you! xxx
This non-race report is the real deal.
ReplyDeleteThings just don't always go how we expect them to. It is giving me a lot to think about this week. Anything can happen on race day, and we really don't control all of the circumstances. We do our best, though. YOU did your best.
Seeing you with Ana Maria brings me BIG smiles. What a friendship has been forged there. And the phone conversations with Jenn- I bet there were some good laughs :) and maybe some tears. And I can imagine the slumber party of sharing a hotel with Nicole. Ha! Close friendships brought closer.
No doubt in my mind there will be another Boston for you! And you will have this one as fuel for the next.
Oh, Amanda, you are one hell of fighter! You ROCKED the race as I predicted. No matter the time. I cannot imagine running a marathon in such conditions. I did NYC half in August 2009 in similar conditions, but it started at 7 am and it was only half and I felt like dying. You did great job, really! I hope to see you in Boston 2013!!!
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ReplyDeleteSo here's the short version...LOVE the story and the pics! You are one tough, pretty cookie :) Cannot wait to see you again and give you a REAL LIFE congratulatory hug :)
Woooohooo, congracts to fighting! I love your articles, sooo many positive atitude! thanks!
ReplyDeleteWhat? The highlight of your trip wasn't when I sent you a text picture of my boxed red velvet cake? I feel so sad!!!
ReplyDeleteYou are awesome, truly an amazing experience and I am soooo glad you got over that Jenn couldn't go and understood how important this trip was for you. I just couldn't be more proud of you...you are getting stronger and stronger as the months click by, and growing into this incredible runner you were meant to be! Congratulations!!!
From what I've read, the weather was so tough on everyone. But what it brought out in people was a camaraderie that only extreme hardship can create. Everyone who completed the race was a victor.
ReplyDeleteYour race will come.
I love your non-report report. And the pictures are GREAT!!! I think this race gave us a new and different kind of strength than most marathons, and while we didn't walk away with new PRs, we did come away with much that will help us in future racing. My Dad says it will always be bragging rights to say we finished Boston 2012. :)
ReplyDeleteI love that you are going to BQ and run it again next year. I will see you there!
Great pics too. Hope you recover quickly!!
I think you are fantastic and awe-inspiring. You went to Boston! You ran a great race in horrible conditions! You have learned from it and have grown!
ReplyDeleteThat's not so bad :)
You are blessed and one HELL of a runner. I dont know if I can say that or not on wordpress. ??
ReplyDeleteOh Amanda....you are amazing. :)
ReplyDeleteOne of the things I have enjoyed most is reading the race reports. For me, this is my one and only Boston. I want to savor this one, tucked in my heart forever. But I love that you are going after it again! Sometimes the most miserable moments are our biggest learning curves of all. Take it all in. You finished....sometimes that is the most important thing.
Awesome report!
ReplyDeleteI love all of the pictures. Despite it being such a tough race, you still look happy and thankful to be there. You are an amazing runner and I can't wait to read the recap when it's ready.
ReplyDeleteGREAT PICS!! and the pizza looked freakin awesome! the smiles in the picture say it all...
ReplyDeleteWay to go!
This is a great non-race report! I hope you are feeling good about it all and ready to move forward. You did the best you could! First of all, no sleep... BTDT-horrible! Then the heat... Your body is just not used to those conditions.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful pictures and you still look great despite feeling like HELL!
Congrats! You are awesome. You have such a good attitude and it seems like you really had a good time, even though it was so hot. I am proud of you and everyone who finished that race. You are a rock star.
ReplyDeleteBeautifully written Amanda. Isn't Boston truly magical. I know for a fact that you will be back and that you are an amazing runner. Conditions were anything but ideal and the most important thing is that you learned from the experience and gained so so much in the journey.
ReplyDeleteI am sad I missed you up at the athletes village. I could have totally calmed your nerves. I was so so calm about Boston and I think that is much of the reason I ended up having such a good race.
What an experience! You're right about the parallels between marathon training and life lessons... and that is one challenging run! I'm glad you had such an amazing support system and managed to still have a great time in Boston despite the circumstances. I think this totally counts as a race report! :)
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your experience :-)! It was fantastic meeting you last night. I apologize for being quite abrupt. I felt as if I knew you already from following your blot and was so awe struck to see you in person!!! :-)
ReplyDeleteOne of my favorite things about marathons is the life comparisons. It's one of those beautiful things that can't be described unless you have done one or more. I'd like to think of it as God's sport! The pictures are awesome...my favorite being the one with the guy grabbing his balls. NICE!!! If only he knew his picture grabbing his crotch is on a high traffic blog visited mostly by women!! LOL. Proud of you, Amanda. Looks like an amazing trip despite the disappointments. Have a great weekend and rest up those legs!!! see you in eugene!!
ReplyDeleteAmanda, this was just perfect! So much emotion, so much learning, so much heart! I loved pacing you and sharing in your private experience out there on the course. You did so good, stayed strong and finished! As I told you on the course, you will never have to do something this hard! Next marathon will seem so easy by comparison. Love all the pics. You are one fun gal, and your energy is contagious. Looking forward to seeing you again sometime this summer, hopefully!
ReplyDeleteI'm jealous you got to hang with Gracie and AM and chat with Jenn on the phone! Rest and pig out - you deserve it. I can imagine those hellacious temps out there. Congrats on your Boston!
ReplyDeleteYou finished in good time on a miserably hot day. Be proud. And kind to yourself. The hot weather and running both have close to the same effect on you and running in hot weather doubles that. So of course you are still sore. Heal up and I have no doubt you'll run a fast marathon soon.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations!! Be proud of what you've done! (and that you don't have to worry about chafed balls! :)
ReplyDeleteYou are absolutely incredible. I would have been beyond emotional too and I love how you pushed through the hardest race ever and your analogy to life was amazing. CONGRATS!
ReplyDeleteWow! From reading your description in the beginning I was ready to see that you were running 10-12+! Great job keeping it under 4! I'm sure it was the effort along with the 10 miles of walking after that rashed your quads! Keep the rest going, but keep those legs moving to hep them recover! Congrats on beating the Beast of Boston this year!!
ReplyDeleteCongrats Amanda. Sorry it was a tough race. I enjoyed reading your recap (even if it wasn't a mile-by-mile one). Well done.
ReplyDeleteIn a word... AMAZING.. as always Amanda!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteI couldn't be more proud of you than I am right now, even if your sub-4 had been a sub-3. You fought for that sub-4 harder than you've ever fought during a marathon, and that takes balls. So CONGRATULATIONS on winning the fight. <3
ReplyDeleteCongrats on finishing Boston in such oppressive heat! It was miserable that day as a spectator, I can't imagine how it was for all the runners.
ReplyDeleteAnd NEXT YEAR we must meet up. My now newborn will be a year old by then and hopefully more manageable for this first-time mom. ;-)
Again, congrats!
You came, you saw and you conquered! At least that's my perspective on it. I loved your pictures, and despite everyone's stories of personal worsts and physical issues, I would still give a kidney (to quote another blogger) to have been there.
ReplyDeleteNext year will be very different! Onward and upward!
This is such an honest recap! But, I am absolutely dying at the chaffed balls photo bomb! Gracie is bionic! WOW!
ReplyDeleteYou have to be proud of your race with conditions like that and absolutely NO prep in the PNW for that. I'm proud of you. Let that body heal and go get your next one!
DeleteYOU ARE AMAZING! Congrats on a great accomplishment.
ReplyDeleteHuge respect for all the Boston 2012 finishers!! See you at HTC!
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